MY WHY
MY WHY
It started with the realisation that Art should never be silenced. And I had a lot to say.
I started showing my Artwork again because after 16 years of being an adult and living for everybody else, I wanted something for me. No. I needed something for me. It was time for my self worth to be a priority.
We should all believe we are worth whatever we want out of life, shouldn't we? So if I was going to start from scratch, it was going to be doing something that meant everything to me.
I wanted to build something for myself.
A Freya Ridings' song called 'Castles' has a line that goes "I'm gonna build castles from the rubble of your love". Well I heard that and instead of it being about who I'd walked away from, it set a fire in me and I felt those words screaming that I should run. Run as far away from the shrivelled up person I'd lived as for so many years, hiding from everything and everyone, and build myself and my life again, from all the love I was owed. Owed from myself. I was going to build my castle. I took all of the pity, self-loathing, anxiety and guilt I'd tortured myself with and turned it into self-esteem, self-worth and self-love. I was going to build my life. And I was going to live it my way.
So here I am. An Artist. I've always been one, even if it was only me that knew that. So Lois Pedley Art was born.
Art is all I focused on growing up. My parents say I started colouring at 2 years old and that was that. This time round I hadn't picked up a pen to draw or a paint brush to paint since I was 19. I was terrified. But I did it, I'm here, right now, living my dream, my truth and my life. I love my Art, and I love everything it, and I, stand for.
I've seen first hand the power Art has, not just on myself, but on others. It opens minds. It opens hearts. It shows us what we need to see. And things we think we don't. It can calm the restless of souls and awaken the spirit in those that are in desperate need of finding something to marvel at.
Thank you for being witness to the miracle I thought I'd never believe: Art is my why. I am an Artist. Therefore, I am my why.
